April's Fool Day

I'm a fool.... i can't stop the ache.... feel like chopping my heart apart so it will not feel pain... i hate this feeling... i hate..... i think its my fault to deserve all these... its my fault.... if i can juz stop thinking, if i can stop asking, if i can stop every internal organs to stop functioning my heart will not ache... i juz want to be quiet now..... shhhhhhhhh...... let me sleep.. let me....... shhhhhhh...........