I'm looking forward for the day when i can close my eyes and sleep peacefully... no worries... no pain...

Can i stop being sensitive?
Can i stop thinking rubbish?
Can i stop?
or should i stop talking?

How to trust?
Did i trust?
How to believe?
Did i believe?
How to accept?
Did i accept?

Am i too slow?
How can i catch up?
Am i too stupid?
How can i be more clever?
Tell me how can i catch up?

Will you wait for me?
Will you hold my hand?
Will you walk with me?
What if i cannot catch up?
Will you abandon me?

I'm slowing down... I really cannot catch up... I'm panting like mad... please... tell me what can i do? Helpless... total helpless... depress came back... will loner follow? Four Leaf Clover dying off.......