Shouldn't be counting but why am i counting again? Haiz... Anyway couldn't be help... And also haven't seen him for quite a few days already... Kinda miss him but now i'm slowly getting use to it i think. Get more friends out loh... Very soon i'll get use to not seeing him so much. But these few days really mood swing... Sometimes happy sometimes sad sometimes lonely sometimes i'm happy to be alone. But i don't like the feeling too confusing... The mood goes up n down like roller coaster. And i'm forcing myself not to think so trying all ways not to have extra time to think. Haiz... When can i force myself stop feeling bad about everything? Trying so hard........ Grrrr...... That's why i said i want my life!! Only way out is to fill my schedule so i dun have the time to think of anything. Dunno what i'm talking lah!! Juz wanna vent it out.... not anger but juz feel so troubled in heart... Today Sharann n Summer said i looked very troubled... Am i? I think so too.... Sometimes its so nice to see them organising outings and happily went out together. Me too so much wanna join them but i guess i can't... Haiz.... i dun have the ability to... But Monday they having a Christmas Celebration at Tony's place. I'm going!!! kekeke....

Tomorrow meeting my darlings for birthday celebration... Hmmm... Quite some time didn't see them hope tmr will be a fun day!! See ya darlings!!!

Tomorrow 2 people's birthday... Happy Birthday Dar's Mum n kaiyan!!! Happy Birthday!!=)

Hey suddenly realise how come i consistantly blog everyday for these week huh? Too free is it? Or too much things inside heart and nowhere to vent out? Haiz... Long time didn't blog like that...